Today we stop the Japan series to share a personal and summery pictures post.
I have several times shared my fear for planes in the blog, it's something that I can't control no matter how many times I tell myself that it's irrational and that I am in the same danger than when riding a train, bus or car (in fact, last two are way more dangerous). When the engines start, and I hear the noises from the motor, I am scared, the worse part of course is always taking off, but I am never able to disconnect from the worrying noises. For long flights it helps when the aircraft is more isolated, I have entertainment (movies help!) or it's more comfy. Apart from that, and since I don't want to take any pills, I endure the fear the best I can. Do you have any tips?
The other day we decided that a good therapy would be to watch planes, from up close, at the Barcelona's airport viewpoint in a lovely location called Delta del Llobregat. It's so funny, because when I was there I had mixed feelings, in fact I was more excited to plan a new adventure than scared. I guess the fear is luckily not overpowering my craving of new adventures, which is great because I am already warning you that I have the need to go back to Japan (crazy gal!) and have a list of new places where to bring our camera!
However, I feel I want to be completely open and honest, my biggest fear of them all has nothing to do with planes, I'm terribly scared (on a daily basis) that someone I love or myself gets severely ill.
Precisely, I've been inside my nightmares recently and completely MIA from everything in my life because Juno got sick around two weeks ago. She started on a Friday evening vomiting more than 14 times, my heart hurting so much every time I was noticing a new vomit was coming through, I'm sure you can imagine the hopeless feeling when you can't understand why this is happening.
We ran the next morning to our vet, she didn't feel her stomach swollen, so gave us some gastritis pills and send us home with the warning that we had to have an exhaustive control on her for 48h starting on Sunday, she had to eat & drink normally and not vomit a single time, otherwise we would have to run to take thorough tests.
I'm not sure if it's the same in your part of the world, but here doctors tend to give you all the possible scenarios so you have a knowledge of what could be happening, for me this is like the worst possible approach, because she scared me to death.
Luckily, I was able to work from home on Monday and Tuesday, and I was checking on Juno like every two minutes. In my head I even sometimes heard the vomiting sounds, but then it was only a ghost voice. At around 40h I was hopeful that everything was ok, but then at only 2 hours from that 48h deadline she vomited again. My heart sunk, so so deeply, I started to helplessly cry so much, which was only scaring Juno but I couldn't stop. I rang Dani to tell him (he was on his way to our home) and I could sense how he was down. We called the vet, arranged a test visit for the next morning and that night I couldn't sleep at all.
The tests took more than 4 hours and I had to wait at a café nearby just in case something was wrong and they needed our ok for an intervention. By now, I don't even need to mention how I was feeling, those 4h alone in the café, not able to sip a single drop, just looking at my phone hoping there wasn't a call, Dani joined me after a work meeting in the middle and we were like two ghosts sitting one next to the other. Luckily there wasn't a call, and when we arrived the vet told us that the tests looked quite OK. She didn't have all those horrible things she had warned us about and instead she had a gastritis combined with a UTI caused by two bacteria.
We are right now starting second week of her three-week treatment and I'm crossing fingers we are fighting those bacteria, she has vomited twice and we had to re-start the anti-vomit pill, but I really hope she is feeling better.
I've felt not only scared but also lonely, however, on a positive note, all the hassle with Juno is making me love my tiny close family and appreciate my work environment even more, people from my work have been very kind to me asking about Juno everyday and my boss made so easy for me to take care of Juno at home and going to the vet.
How do you deal with fears in your daily life? Or are you maybe a fearless being? In that case, I definitely envy your position!
Big hug to fellow worriers like myself! Everything will be ok. Oh! and next week we continue with the Japan series, hope you are enjoying them because I feel I could be sharing Japan photos non-stop, ha!